taboo and expectations

i broke a taboo last weekend. or was it the one before tt. i can't be sure. but i played fm using my team. it's a taboo for me because i never put my teams in games, which broadly includes gambling. meaning: i never bet on my own team, and i dun use my own team in fm, fifa, wadeva.

but i broke it. maybe because i am frustrated with all the stuff we are bogged down with. i want to win with it. i want to show, in any way possible, that it could be done. and should be done. i can't accept not winning. not with this team.

i only know expectations after we won that double in 97/98. the expectation of winning. and since that invincible season, there can be no turning back.