february

tomorrow is february.

i was wondering if i would even get to play this month. even once. as late as this morning, the danger was there. it was thankfully dispelled, although twice at the max, is scant consolation.

i can only pray that all goes well.

i don't want to be in a situation where i don't play for 2 consecutive weeks, because i would be taking so many steps back. and in hell, there is like no chance to play at all. and even if there is, that kind of play doesn't really excite me. it is not the way i want.

you might say i am obstinate.

but when you have tasted something fantastic, it is very hard for you to veer away from it. like the softshell crab at thai express. why change a winning combination? and we did experimented.

sometimes, you should stop the tinkering.

and nothing beats playing with people who share the same ideals as you.