parting

"i knew that we were living on borrowed time. i knew that one day it would end.

but i never thought it would end simply because all things end.

i always thought it would end when he leaves for Madrid. because let's not kid ourselves, we would be living half a world apart. how are you supposed to manage? but i never thought it would end earlier.

maybe it was just as well. i thought about it. maybe it would be better this way. we would be able to accept it more. maybe we won't have regrets then. after all, it didn't end simply because he was leaving. but because it was going all wrong already...such that it would be better if we end the pain once and for all.

i really want to believe that."