for you

your first birthday without you

like nothing to say,
staring at the calendar.

like being awake,
when everyone else's asleep

like standing still,
as others move.

like falling down,
when everyone's standing.

like nothing to say,
twirling an empty cup in the hand

like looking at the crowd,
head on railing from afar.

like opening the door,
to find no one there.

like listening to a discman,
with no disc in it.

like looking into the mirror,
not knowing who that is.

like picking the joker,
from a deck of aces.

like staring at a handphone,
that simply doesnt ring.

like being helpless,
as the clock ticks down.

like staring at another day without you.