your answer

i was just thinking about how we can catch manchester united. chelsea, us, liverpool, spurs, and maybe two upsets. 6 games, thats 18 points for them to drop. 18 points for us to close the gap.

and this is your answer.

this is your answer. i still can't quite believe it. but this is your response.

we talk so much about catching up, believing that the race is not over. and we have worked so hard to haul ourselves back to third, and this is our answer.

this is our answer.

i understand. so you don't want to win. here's the plan for the new year:

1) try to score a goal every two games
2) try not to lose two games in a row
3) try not to lose a game by more than two goals
4) try not to concede more than two goals per game

but do you know, that i have never once given up all these months? not even when we lost two in a row. never ever.

what a fool i have been.

we are the joke of the town. the losers. everybody is laughing at us because it's so easy to play us.

and today, you are telling me that straight in the face.

everything that i have held, clung so dearly onto, in this bleak period, all thrown out.

never since that holland game against the czechs have i felt what i felt today. in fact, it is much worse.

because i am absolutely numbed by your answer.

so much for hope. no wonder it is the absence of reason.

i give up, okay?

and i always wonder how parents feel when their kids come up to them straight in the face and tell them they don't share their parents' plans for them. plans that the parents have meticulously worked out.

i think i need a break.