i was too rational. but again, you can see it as impulsive. but it is not easy to figure out what exactly happened, how the decision was made, such is the complexity of the interaction between heart and mind.

in losing more than necessary, i was being too rational.

in losing in the first place, i was being impulsive. trying to push the ball forward even though you are already so close to the line. but then again, was it really the heart more than the mind? because if i had stopped to listen, i wouldn't plunge into it. i was thinking too much, trying to convince myself that it was possible. and it was indeed possible, why not.

so, what had seemed at first to be an act of impulse, an act based on instinct, on closer examination is merely a case of being too rational.

if you need to think so much, it's probably wrong.

i made another miscalculation today. what we did was not enough. and we should have done something else. maybe you can say we tried, but to me, we didnt exactly pull it off.

but it's still very disappointing for it to end this way.