see, not hear.
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now you know why i like to talk about football. because it is just about the only thing that can really excite me.

and you know you can't excite me at all. i am not interested in that kind of stuff. i only care about whether or not i am going to play, whether or not we are going to win.

that kind of stuff, i'll leave it to you.
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don't run, because i am not chasing.
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the fight lies within.
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people always say the past was worse. but i think this kind of mentality is wrong. you worked so hard to bring things to their present state; do you really want to go back to that past? in any case, that kind of thinking is so regressive. you are always holding yourself back, always with the handbrake on, because you dare not look in front. it's the maximin approach. minimise loss. so defensive. you know it, but won't, or are too afraid to admit it: it's not enough.

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why must i lose to learn, if i can win and learn?