i have nothing left to prove

they weren't looking on the bright side; they weren't looking at all. pure foolishness.

we lost the swagger. the confidence. the arrogance. it's that arrogance. when people look at us, they know they had lost. they lost their confidence to take on us. they thought we are going to win. we lost that.

sometimes i think about holland and see many parallels with us. maybe myself in particular. the 1974 team said they would rather be remembered for being the best team that didn't win, rather than won it. i think it might be true that had they won, they would not be so etched in people's memories. sometimes, i rather lose with style. and they were saying the dutch tried to ease the pain of losing, despite having probably the best team of the tournament, by saying that they were more interested in playing beautiful football, rather than winning. winning is beneath them. sometimes, we are like that too. are we deceiving ourselves? are we trying to console ourselves? maybe. maybe not. we are too idealistic, you might say. but we just want to be true to ourselves, don't we? trying to find ourselves in the mess that's this world.

a way of playing that was very amsterdam. i can't get this out of my head. Ruud Krol's words.

must play list
gazette-cassis
nakashima mika- glam sky
orange range-michishirube
orange range- hana
otsuka ai- planetarium
otsuka ai-cherish
otsuka ai-5:09 am
otsuka ai- always together
b'z-ocean
ai- story
kobukuro-koko ni shika sakanai hana
remioromen- konayuki