maybe i should ahve went for the shot today, however tight the angle was.

i think i din go for the shot because i was thinking, this was their show, not mine. so i went for the pass.

or maybe because i wasnt confident enough. because i didnt suspend myself in that dream-like state. sometimes, you have to do that in order to do things that you thought were impossible. the otehr way, of course is to just close your eyes and take that leap of faith. maybe.

but even now, that moment still haunts me. because it represented one chance for me to bury the ghost of the past.

if i could be in that position all over again, if i could shoot again, it would be a goal.