i feel old. i know i can never go back to the past. in fact i know my life has changed the moment i went for those interviews etc in shirts. i mean that is just one aspect of course. but it is a sign, nevertheless.

it's like sometimes u have so much thing to say, so much feelings about it, but when the moment comes, you just feel numb.

i was looking forward to eating. but when faced with the choices, i just feel numb. like no more feelings. and by nature i am someone who classifies 90percent of things as ok, 5 as superb and 5 disgusting. so that sort of aggravates the problem of not being able to make choices. not that i am a poor decision maker, i feel that mostly i am decisive, but when it comes to such stuff, i am just ok with anything.

10 songs
Glamorous Sky nakashima mika
Sign mr children
Yume no Chikara aya ueto
Missing You fly to the sky
Ai no Tameni aya ueto
Story ai
Hana orange range
Long Road w-inds
Tsuki no Shizuka rui
Endless Story ito yuna

Sign is a funny song. i din like it at first, when i was watching orange days. then slowly, it grows on me. i feel a weird sensation of being moved by it. maybe because i can identify with parts of it.